it wasnt all that great...
till i saw yeeleen, xinyi and the jj team :D

it wasnt that fantastic. till i went to dinner with reena, jiazhi, shu and cel. and senior xianwei and vivian. i had tonnes of fun i must say :D we laughed a hell lot. tonnes of funny stuff happened. all the jagging and all. our luohan and stingray stories :D HAHAH. im lazy to say nowww. hahah. but i love the four of them :D :D

> praying mantis! tho i always bully you, you know i still love you right! assface! :D hahah. tip for being ugly! HAHAH.

(:

i gotta wake up at 5.30 tomorrow ): ): butttt, i'll get to seeeee wonderful people! :D hokay, i am a happy girl(: at least, i'll try to be. hah


; when that memory slips away, there will be a better view from here
10:45 PM '

"its not that youre not skilled. in fact, youre a very skilled player. but we feel that we cant get enough commitment from you. we want players who can give us full commitment, especially the j1s. cause theyre gonna be with us for another year."

YEAH.

I BLOODY HAVE NO COMMITMENT.


12:17 AM '

mummy just called. shes so cute i swear. she feels sad for me. HAHAH. shes thinking of all kinda methods to help but apparently they wont work. like what, emailing the teacher? HAHAH. but well, thanks mummy (:

you know i really wanna get into sneakers. but it aint possible. mr goh wanted to take me in base on my performance in adiv. and i cant even bloody play in adiv. bloody hell. fruck. @#@&()(**^#$##@^^* i guess i'll just lose touch of netball for the rest of my life. well, freakit.

well, i guess im just pathetic.

but well like i always said, i have great friends and a wonderful family.

-

i watched two hundred pound beauty today. its a damn nice show. funny and touching. i cried know! hahah.

dinner and all was great fun. i had alot of fun today :D

will blog in detail soon. maybe tomorrow night or something.

tomorrows gonna be a great day :D

> panpan! thanks for lending me your ipod! (:

-

met reena on the way back. talked about this whole unfair shit and all. about this and that. well, it made me really upset again. ugh. its so damn bloody unfair. #$%$^ it made me just wanna break down right there. but i know, im stronger than that. i am i am i am.

"nothings fair. definitely not life"

> all my friends. heyy guys. i havent exactly been really okay. and i may just be in a damn lousy mood or something. i may be mean or nasty or anti social or emo or whatever. and you know, maybe you guys shouldnt give a shit bout me. like seriously. but anyhows, thanks for caring yupp.

this is a rough patch. it is. and its so damnit rough.

; when the stars go blue
10:21 PM '

okay okay kim, time to get over it.

thank you kennedy my ex girlfriend(see, big big for you eh) thank you jeremy tan my panpan, thank you sheranne wong my tweety, thank you dricee my bloody sister, thank you ven, thank you elis larling, thank you emma love.

and thank you jem, jacq, jac, yao, chark and jiazhi again (:

and thank you much much marcmarc :D

hello peopleee, thanks for everything. thanks for never forsaking me. thanks for never failing to make me smile, thanks for never giving up on me, thanks for caring about me, thanks for picking me up, thanks for being a part of me, and thanks for being a friend. i love all of you, alot alot (: hahah you guys made me cry! cause you all are so so nice to me (: i dont think i deserve such great friends. and i really thank God for every single one of you :D

and lissa choo, or should i say lissa goh? hahah. thank you dear. you know its really amazing how you just sent me that message right before my training ended. and i got to see it right after training?

"praying that you'll be filled with God's strength to overcome your trials. ...."

it struck me really hard. maybe its really all part of God's plan. or should i say, it is. hah

im feeling much much better now.

> hi you, i do not hate you. and im not angry with you or anything. takecare. seeya around

> alliance, hello you my dear. i want you to stay happy always okay. i love you so much (:

> heyy chark, thanks for always showering me with love and concern and support. thanks for being the one there for me always and always. youre my special love <3.>

> hello jarold lim, hahah, tho i dont think you knew that i was down or whatever. but the chat with you really made me feel alot better. stop laughing you pandhi! eUu ArE tHe CuTeSt EhH. "i LuRbbeS EuU woRx" you know what i mean. HAHAH.

> mummy, i dont think you'll ever see this. but i have never really told you how appreciative i am of all that you have done for me. youre the best mum that anyone can ever have. thanks for everything okay. i love you.

> heyy uncle. thanks for the talk last night. like really thanks for being so supportive of me. i haven exactly been the best girl around and i know there are times when im just so naughty and disappointing. but well, thanks for everything.

> grandmaaaaa! hahah i know you so wont see this. but then, i just wanna tell you that i love you i love you i love you! :D youre the BEST (:

> hello daddy in heaven , thank you for all my friends. they are the most wonderful things that you have placed in my life. and as much as its tough going thru this period of time, im gonna get thru it. thanks for giving me lovely people to accompany me thru. and like what pan pan said, im just hitting a rough patch. everythings gonna get better.

> AC NETBALL TEAM. all the best guys (:

-

hello kim, youre stronger than this right.
come on, get yourself together.
stop crying you dumbass.
this isnt the end right.
this isnt everything.
you have much much more than just netball.
look at your friends, they are all there for you.
dont make them sad by being a loser.
come on, let me see you smile.
dry those tears and smile genuinely.
werent you always the one saying lame stuff
werent you always the one trying to cheer people up
werent you always the one happy
werent you always the one smiling and being retarded
werent you always the positive one
and arent you gonna be that way again
arent you gonna be stronger.
are you just gonna brood over this shit
no way right.
wake up you fool.

10:59 PM '

im feeling mega shitty right now.
i cried like some pangsai like seriously.
i feel so loserish or whatever.
so yeah, im not in the team.
all those "its so unexpected", "you stood a high chance" , "i thought you would have gotten in"or whatever, they dont change a thing.
i mean i really appreciate all those messages and all.
but you know at the end of it all, nothing changes.
its not that i feel sorry for myself not getting in or what.
i know im gonna sound like really mean or something.
but like seriously, i feel that some people do not even deserve the place.
like i can say with all my heart that all those girls that arent chosen ARE better than some of those chosen. like seriously. hate me if you want to. but like seriously.

i have never felt that things were so bloody unfair before in my entire life.
like i dont totally say that its not my fault.
yeah but im so sure that
its my damn bloody fault for being short
its my damn bloody fault that im not a shooter
-

but i know that
its my fault for losing passion
its my fault for not wanting it hard enough
its my fault for slacking off.
its my freaking shitass life.

not like im saying im all good and that i deserve a place or whatever. its just that i feel so upset that i lost the place to people whom i dont think are as good as i am. kill me sue me or whatever. call me bhb or say i think too highly of myself or whatever. but this is what i feel. i have never been so damn honest about it before.

so the point is, im not bloody in the team.
for the first time in my whole damn life.

i feel that youre such an unfair bitch.

i totally hate this. i wonder if anyone really understands how i feel.

like whatever whatever im still feeling mega shitty.

im just ranting and ranting and feeling sucky.
yah call me pathetic.

thanks grann, mum, uncle, marcmarc, jacq, jaclyn, christina, wenyao, xinyi, amanda, wanqi, jem, shuhui, cheryl lee, charkchark, jiazhi and celeste. and pandhi hamster.

i have never been so sad in a long time.
i thought this never mean much to me or never would mean much to me. and now that im not inside, i feel damn freaking sad. hah loser right. ohwell. im so gonna miss jiazhi celeste reena shuhui cheryl and pamcil

maybe only marc and jem understands totally. no, i know amanda understands.
amanda, now i really really know how you felt.

hello girls, i really do love you guys alot. i love some of you more than you guys ever will know. these few months had been really great. i really am thankful that i have gotten to know you guys. i definitely had much fun and i had really been happy hanging out with some of you. and i wish you guys all the best. tho i aint gonna stay, but memories stay yeah. maybe i havent been exactly the best friend or best team mate around but you guys had been great i must say. it really had been a joy being able to know some of you guys more than i ever thought that i would. you guys mean a heap load to me, really.

especially to jiazhi, cel, reena, shu, pam, cheryl, yini, shian, thank you guys.

well.
the bloody first time im not going to kallang.

i hate this.
"its okay to lose"
but not to people who arent better than you are.

well, that did bring back memories of the damai game. well, freak it.

blow me up for being mean.

call me the biggest sore loser on earth.
2:57 PM '

I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling

i wanted to go to guthrie and have some time by myself. rah, but i just finished my pi. and then my printer pissed me off. stupid thing keep telling me no ink! i just put in a NEWWWNEWWWWW cartridge lah! pangsai. and now its raining. big booboo. the thunder is so intimidating. so loud for what. rah. bad mood bad mood.

i slept at 5am this morning. i thrashed panpan 17-3 in solitaire showdown (: hes depressed. okay maybe not, cause hes challenging me again now. HAHAH. never say die spirit! okay i lost badly to him in poker lah. soooo we are quits. but i didn lose THAT badly. HAH

jeremy. says:
the thunder dam soft here la.
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
cause
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
move here
jeremy. says:
o.o
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
scaryyyyy
jeremy. says:
lol
jeremy. says:
i give u 1 good idea
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
what
jeremy. says:
to protect urself from lightning
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
i shall close the window
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
wear rubber
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
HAHAHa
jeremy. says:
put ur beardy at the window
jeremy. says:
so strike ur beardy not u
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
WAHLAO
jeremy. says:
LOL
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
thats a damn bad idea hokay

im upset im upset ): i just took out the m&ms candy machine that someone special gave me. i happily went to clean it and then i brought out the whole load of m&ms. like five packets of m&ms, four tubes of mini m&ms, and 2 packets of chachas. theyre expired. except for the chachas. im damn sadddddddddd ): that time someone special gave me five packets and two tubes of m&ms. and all of them were expired except for one pack which i ate on the morning of chinese o's. rahhh ): i couldnt bear to eat them then theyre all expired. what the pong lah ): ):

i feel so crappy now. still gotta do the dumb gpp. i have a whole load of work to do. i doubt i'll do much. i feel like sleeping. i have to bring that lil rascal out for dinner later. i want some bubble tea and i want gummies.

> stop trying to impress me, it wont work.

; lets fly so high, will you come with me tonight
3:00 PM '

/edited.

just woke up not too long ago. i am in a very bad mood. okay maybe not, im just sad. like really sad.

MONDAY
so i went to school as per normal. i cant really remember what happened and stuff. like you know, the days are so long. all i know it, during lit class. i heard this girl calling this other girl kimberley. so i was like HMM.. then i went to ask that girl, who was sitting next to me, "whats your name" and she said kimberly. i told her im kimberley. HAHAH and guess whats her surname! YEOH! and mines YEO! so its like KIMBERLY YEOH AND KIMBERLEY YEO in the same class. COOL RIGHT. i bet you think its cool. HAHAH

and omg i just realised something. i thought i was charging my phone. i didnt even put the plug into my phone. HOW SMARTTTT.

so monday i skipped swim pe again. yays. so training was quite horrible. im lazy to say. it ended at like 9 plus. we would have seriously continued training till like midnight if charlotte didnt come and save our lives. and then maybe the suicide runs would have accumulated to 1000.

shian's dad fetched yini and i again. thanks. bubble tea-d with my bubble tea buddy again. came home. felt the NEED to blog about the four hundred suicide runs. hah.

TUESDAY
i went to school (: dont be surprised. hmm school went on and all. cedric was such an ass i swear. he made me run all over the place looking for a pe shirt for him and when i finally got one, he said that its bad wearing girl's stuff. i so wanted to just strangle him. hahah. and bio was really fun. we spent the whole time laughing with miss tang. HAHAH.

so after school, went with charkchark to cathay to free cone day. while waiting for a cab, i was eating and i wanted to throw the plastic bag away. so i saw SOOSBERT! hahah and i asked him to help me throw the plastic bag away. HAHAH THANK YOU SOOSBERT! hahah. it was damn funny. anyhows had choc fudge brownie (: then after that we walked over to plazasing to have subway. then we saw marc marc and jwong running. HAHHA. damn funny. so after chark and i finished, we walked over to cathay to find marc. nicky was there too. so chark and i walked around the whole place then we trained home.

i had alot alot alot of fun. i love my darling charkchark! :D

hahah and i learnt from chark, im a brave girl now! (:

oh and marc marc was so sweet! he said that he would bring alot of sweets for me so that i will have alot alot of energy to run my fourhundred suicides. hahah

WEDNESDAY
went to school. met dinosaur on the way. i havent seen him in like ten million years tho we are in the same school. tsk. hahah. and marcmarc gave me alot of sweets and chocs! :D THANK YOU! (: so the day went on and all. the lit lecturer is damn cute! i think the way he laughs is damn cute! HAHAH.

it was special special ian chang's birthay and there was some celebration thing for him but i wasnt able to go. well. training was alright. we all braced ourselves for the suicides but it didnt come. and that explains why im here, alive and typing.

so after training. i was walking out of school with the netties. i have to go a different way from all of them. so i saw my bus and i rannnnnnnnnn. then when i reached the bus stop, the bus was still at the traffic light. wahlao. hahah and i saw joel tan AGAIN! hahah.

THURSDAY
was late for school. cause it was raining then there was traffic jam. met ruixin and we chatted. it was quite funny cause we parted at the gates of ac cause hes a fairsian. hah. blah the day went on and stuff. i love gp lessons (: like really. pak and i were listening to music and i was doing my articles while the rest were marking the gp papers. hahah the class is always damn noisy during gp. and marcmarc happened to mark my paper. he helped me pass! like 25 on the dot (: THANKS DOOD. hahah. he was like "kim youre doing well! i think you'll pass" then he "okay maybe not. i didnt see the last two pages" HAHAH cause they were blankkkk. but in the end, smelly lil marc seah helped me pass! (:

so the whole day was pretty fun. marc marc and pak pak always make my day (: hah bio lecture was fun. i drew my Little Green Martian on marc's hand and mine. his had the head and mine had the body. so we joined them together. TRANSFORMERS! HAHAH so cute right! so after the lecture. marc was going out of the door and then his shirt got caught! then pak pushed him and marc's shirt tore. HAHAHAH. it was hilarious man.

so after the lecture. we went to meet miss tang at oldham wing. she gave us some cards. then yeah i went off to jj. saw the whole bunch of fairsians at the busstop. then met vanessa also. then i went in, met up with ven and panpan! (: then kong came also. jiayi was having pc and he waved to me while he was running! hahah funny boy!

so then xinyi and junjie came! ate lunch with them. i laughed till i nearly died. like i nearly had choc milkshake coming out of my nose. HAHAH KIDDING. i was drinking then junjie kept making me laugh lah! i have never quite gotten used to calling him junjie so i just continued calling him brother. hahha more comfortable that way (: so then i saw zhenfeng zheyuan cheewai and samir! all my primary school classmates! (: samir is still quite goodlooking ehhhh. tahah and he has the crumpler that i want to buy!

went over and talk to pan pan for quite some time. then his dad came to fetch him. bro went off for badminton. monkey and i talked and all. walked around the school and stuff. i super like their cafe! and they have this whole area which is damn new. quite cool eh their school. hah watched the badminton peeps do their warm up. hello tonny! (: tahah. theres this guy who talked to me, he said he was at ac for first three months and asked me bout this guy, whom i dont know. hahah.

so we left jj at about seven. came home. typed out my pi. and then i went to watch tv with my granny. fell asleep at around 9. tahah i think.

FRIDAY
went to school. i was late lah. i was damn angry! like it wasnt my fault! rah. the dm caught me for being late but then he got my story wrong! i didnt even understand what he was talking about. and he kept looking at my LGM! maybe cause lgm has three eyes. hahahah

so then the day went on and all. during one of the breaks. i was walking to the voiddeck with my class peeps. then we saw the pe teachers all getting ready to go out for a spin. so we were talking to them. i say that theyre so free! then mr ong was like "free? we are here till eight plus at night wan okay. okay lah. you worse. your one until ten." YEAH LAH EXACTLY. hahah.

then marcmarc was such an idiot. he went "okay. bye. dont choke on your milo beng tehbeng or kaya toast" then he went to sit in miss tang's class. then roberta tan went "DONT THINK YOU LOOK VERY CUTE WE DONT DARE TO SCOLD YOU AH" HAHAHHAHAHA it was damn funny lah! and miss tang asked me to take my LGM off! hahah NEVER. and then i was holding a pair of scissors for damn long. i wanted to cut marcs hair. HAHAH no lah! i was making a card for ianchang! im so nice lah! hahah (:

so yeah the day ended at 3.10. had lunch in the void deck with pak and marc. i ate waffle and mantou. and marc was quite fascinated by the mantou cause it is white and green. HAHAH. then he did some stupid stuff. he rolled the mantou, abit of it, into a ball. he put it in his nose. and it got stuck HAHAHHAHA. then he tried to get it out by sneezing. HAHHA. then he tried it again, this time he forced it out of his nose and tried to catch it with his mouth. HAHAHAHHAHAA i laughed till i teared. i nearly died laughing. HAHAH.

so after that. we walked marcmarc out. then pak stayed with me till my detention class. jacq was with us too. yeah. then went up. saw chark. she walked me to the library. so had detention. i fell asleep but thank God i didnt get caught.

so then i rushed down for training. training ended near ten. cel and i were being retarded. we were trying to see who has a longer breath! and i kept losing cause i kept laughing! i look at her i cannot dont laugh lah! HAHAH. i was damn sad after that. i lost my LGM. i think someone stole it ): i was really damn damn damn sad. but thank God i had pan pan and marcmarc to cheer me up. then after that a huge bunch of us went to holland to celebrate vicky's birthday at crystal jade. good company. they cheered me up definitely. cabbed home with shu shian and yini after that. came home near one. showered and all. then was on the phone with marc marc till about three. hahah. we laughed and talked about like everything. then we were talking about my LGM. we were like investigating who stole it. and then we concluded that maybe miss tang stole it! and then we went on to saying that the dm stole it! and they stole it while i was having detention or having training! cause the dm knows that i'll be having detention so he went there to take my LGM! or miss tang! when i was having training, she was loitering around!

ahh i want my LGM back ): ): ): it means alot alot alot to me ): )))))):

but then when i saw my wallpaper of beardy. i felt better that at least what i lost wasnt him.

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA YONG! (:

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT! yeah we are your secret admirers! hah.

anddd pak, youre a really bad actor you know. -_-"

> HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VICKY AND KUANGHWEE (:


ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
lgm got come home?
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
noooooooo
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
);
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
haha
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
he go home to mars alr la
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
WHYYYYYY ):
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
cos he miss his family la
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
butttt. he could have told me, then i send him off!
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
aiyoh
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
i bet you wont let him go la
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
i will! like say bye bye then send him back
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
but he left without a word
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
lol
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
maybe you abuse him la
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
I WHERE GOT!
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
i bring him to see the whole world everyday know
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
haha
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
ah ian chang. all your fault lah
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
you jinxed me
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
me?
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
haha
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
more like i saved lgm
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
i bet he will come visit me
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
YEAH RIGHT
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
why would he!
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
cos he like me
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
i feed him chocolate la
KIMBERLEY(: when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see says:
OH SO YOU STOLE HIM
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
nope
ian. it's not always rainbows and butterflies. says:
i merely helped him escape

im saddd. i dont wanna go out anymore ): i want my lgm ): ):

> its sad, how we no longer have much to say. or rather, how we dont talk anymore.

; read if off one sentence at a time
5:07 PM '

How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over.
Moving on, its my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it.

HELLO everyone! :D

okay i have many many things to blog about but im gonna sleep at eight! cause im like really really super tired! hahah. anyhows met up with some darlings today, and it was great :D i laughed so much that i teared. hah and marc marc's a sweet sweet boy! pak and marc always make me laugh so much lah. hahah. and marc tore his shirt! HAHAHAHAH. it was super super funny i tell you. and we have some transformer thingy drawn on our hands. super cool hokay. its my LGM! hahah

okayy, long story cut short. im a happy girl :D

actually i wanna blog everything out! but tahah, nah i think i'll do it tomorrow night.

> HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY IAN CHANG :D you special special one (:

> ALLIANCE! JZ! i love youuuuuuu! :D smile smile hokay! (:

; dragged the memories down the hall
7:44 PM '

we used to think that twenty nine was like WOW, can die man. but now, not anymore. we have got FOUR HUNDRED! thats like WOW times 13 times or so!

so you think twenty nine is a big number, we have four hundred here. not oranges, not books, not whiteboards. it covers 48km. we have four hundred suicide runs to do.

heyy girls. we are all in this together. thats what we always say right? its true. i love you guys alot alot alot alot. and we can all do this together right babes? AC NETBALL YEAH :D

at the end of it all, i will be mega proud to say "i have gone through four hundred suicide runs with this team"

which one of you out there besides the AC netballers can say this?

we are gonna emerge stronger and better, fitter and faster. we are gonna get through this together and win together. we will be there at toa payoh sports hall, and we are gonna be so fit and so fast and, we are gonna be the champs.

go people, we can do this.
we already did like twenty plus today.
its just four hundred right guys?
like what shu said,
BRING IT ON.

tho its gonna be hell,
but at least we arent doing this alone (:

heads up, believe in yourselves.
lets do this together, AC NETBALL 07 <3.
10:36 PM '

its a boring sunday. i actually stayed home the whole day. i woke up at 4.30 cause christina called -_-" buggieeee. hah anyhows. i keep yawning, after sleeping for so long. i think i have some sleeping disease or something man. hah.

so i ate alot just now. bbq stingray :D satays :D snapple :D many many gummies :D yes im FAT. i dont care okay. okay lah, maybe i do. HAHAH

so i just finished my PI draft! say yays for me! okay i dont wanna think of the stuff undone -_-" tskk. i dont wanna go to school tomorrow. need to hand up alot alot of work ): ): and i wanna eat more gummies. and i want to sleep soon. hahah

anyway something hilarious happened yesterday. we asked these two boys to help us take a photo. so this guy was like "eh come take photo leh!" to his friend. then the friend went "dont want lah!" and ran away. then we were very puzzled then mel went "err. we asked you to take a photo of us, not with us" then that guy was like "huh. oh. sorry sorry" HAHAHAHHAHAH i swear it was damn freaking funny! HAHAH

then while kenneth kengheng mel and i were playing bridge, the guys taped clarence to the chair with like the whole roll of masking tape! and they wanted to throw him into the pool! MADNESS LAH. hahahah but it was quite funny :D

i have nothing much to say. except that i wanna chew something now. hahah. and im supposed to go off by ten pm! i hope i will. okay nows like 9.59 -_-"

and jaclyn ng, BEARDY IS SO DAMN FREAKING CUTE OKAY. you gayyyy. hahah.


saw this on jiazhi's blog. i think its so so so true.

dont ever give up
when you want to try
dont ever wipe your tear
if you still want to cry
dont ever settle for an answer
if you still want to know
dont ever say you dont love her
when you cant let her go

i loved you, and you never knew

; replace, replace that line
10:00 PM '

birthday boy and his imaginary friend




they do this kinda stuff pretty often.






i didnt know he was doing that. i was wondering why there was hot air blowing at my face.







ASSES!


groupie :D



the girls and the pimp.







mitchell's dinner


i popped up in alot of pictures :D HAHAH


another one (: and look, josh's hair :D


the oreocheesecakes.


i killed the birthday girl. thank me everyone :D



i think im such an idiot. they were cutting the cake. and i actually took them without the cake. -_-"


this was random. but our feet looked quite neat eh.


besties (: , my precious











birthday peeps: joshua lim and jacqueline lee!





my pretty slipper (: HAHAH


look at the pair of legs with the black socks and white shoes on. SEXAYE RIGHT. they belong to our dear birthday boy.


candid? maybe.






look at those ermm, boys?



perhaps all of them are gays.


this picture is duper sexy :D



spot me ):


let the peektures tell the story :D


today, i woke up at one plus. met elis at around three. so scary lah! my bus almost went past her stop without her! hahah. thank God she managed to catch it! hah. finally, some time with my precious alone. some catching up done (:

so we went to collect the satays and noodles and all. then mitchell came. so we went walking around, buying stuff for deco. met clarence near ntuc. hah.

so then we took 106 to bukit batok. met up with evan and yongzhi and brandon. went to gerald's condo. which is just directly beside westmall and the mrt!

hah so we went in and all. elis josh and i started doing up the room. with some teeny weeny bit of help from the big group of guys. hahah. looking at them twisting the streamers made me laugh. they all looked damn funny. hahah. so then we did up the room. pretty :D many balloons, pizza, wings, prawn mee, satays, hotdogs. sotong balls, seaweed chicken, much soft drinks. yumm (:

jacq came and she was so touched! hahah. then as usual, all of us made so much noise that we took quite long to sing the birthday songs. as usual lah huh, thoseee guys. hahah. so we sang and all. then we all ate. camwhoreed a mega lot. and as you can tell, joshua lim(mitchell, thats alex's and my nickname for him), the birthday boy is a SUPER CAMWHORE. hahah. every alternate pic in the cam, you will see him. or actually, he appears in EVERY photo. HAHAH. and lissa's first question to me was "got boyfriend not?" BASKETTT -_-"

many peektures, talking, playing with the balloons, being retarded, bridge and all :D it was def a great night. with people i so love and miss, with yummaye food and a great place that seemed like a chalet, i had alot of fun :D

clarence being mr nicee again, baked two oreocheesecakes :D we celebrated josh and elis's birthday too :D

everyone left at around 11.30. we wanted to catch the reaping but west mall doesnt have it. soo yupp. bussed home and i have been on the com for two plus hours. gonna shower and sleep now.
:D :D

im gonna miss them alot once again ): booo

; don't wait for the hands of time to second guess and change your mind
2:55 AM '

Will you listen to my story
How can I explain
Whatever happened here never meant to hurt you

i want to blog so bad and yet im so lazy to. but after much blog surfing, i think i should blog :D

THURSDAY
esmonde and pan pan came over to visit me! i was so shocked! i opened the door expecting only to see esmonde! but pan pan came too! :D tahah they brought no flowers or fruits! what kinda visitation is this! LOUSY! hahah kidding (: so yeah. they stayed around for like close to two hours. we just chatted about everything and anything and time flew past real quick.

so after that, i went to bed. woke up at like 10 plus. did my gp essay which was like way overdue but heyy, I DID IT :D marc is very very proud of me! hahah that lil buggieeee is a really funny boy :D

went to bed near twelve

FRIDAY
i woke up earlier than usual! okay actually not. just like five minutes. HAHAH. and i went to lie down again and then i got up at the same time as usual. hah.

so i took mrt! i ate the cheese thing from mr bean! i like :D but then its like we cant eat in the mrt! then i have to wait till i get out of the train station to eat. then not hot already ): they should let me eat! hahah okay thats so bullshitttt

so then i went to school! i was early know! then i was chatting with emma and zhuan then we went up to the hall together! and ohyeah! i didnt see dricee the whole day! i didnt get to wish him good luck for his match! i dont know if they won but i certainly hope so!

so the day went on and all. bio pract was quite fun. cutting the potatoes and all. i like our bio teacher, alot! so then PAKKEE WAS SO MEAN! he ran out of the class and shouted " LETS GO MARC" then i was like "WAHLAO! i one day never come school then you forgot about me!" then marc and pak were already gone! hahah so i went down to the void deck then i wanted to scold them! then marc said "i realised and i told pakkee that we left kimberley in the lurch" YEAH LAH EXACTLY! hahah then i told them about what i shouted! then marc was lik e" OHHH! i heard! i heard the wahlao i one day never come school, then oops, i was out of the door" HAHAH asses.

brought food to chinese class. 80minutesss. it was not too bad getting through i guess. laoshi gave us ferrero rocher! i like her :D hahah. had a twenty minute break but i dint know that it was only twenty. i followed my class and suddenly emma messaged me "WHERE ARE YOU?!" then i was like SHIT! i hurriedly checked my file and what the pong, i was 20 minutes late for lecture. like what the.

so i rushed up and then miss leow went "explain" then i just told her the truth and she said OK. hahah thank God lah seeeeewiouussslyyyy. tahah. so geog was pretty fine.

then it was bio test! i left like the whole paper blank except for the mcqs, and i didnt even know how to do anything. so i just anyhow tikam. then i just stoned and fell asleep. HAHAH. i dreamt of someone asking me to celebrate someone's birthday which is on the fifteenth of june! HAHHA.
then we had an hour break! :D muh bullshitting and crapping. then i had lit. did some test thing. then it was gp. im always like the first person to reach the gp class cause my previous class is like damn near. tahah. yupp. like i always say, gp lessons pass extremely fast! even marc thinks so! pak too! really damn fast lah! and marc was so nice today! he gave pak and i some marshmallow thing! tahah

so after school. had lunch with pak and marc. then went to buy water. then bussed to kallang with sarah peiyan vicky and qiaowei. slept on the way there. so reached there. changed, taped blah. had a team talk then yeah training started. ran 2.1 km. then ball drills and all.

the match was good. we won overall 83-24. then first quarter was like 24-3. sexayye man! hah ohyeah, we played blaze. yupppppp. coach was in a duper good mood. she didnt scold anyone, and neither was she like angry or anything. she was like laughing and smiling most of the time! it really is so so so much nicer to train like that. you'll feel better and you'll be more motivated to train. hah at least thats the case for me! :D

so after the match. cooled down and all. shuhui was so dumb! i went to shout "THERES A FROG IN YOUR BOTTLE!" she screamed and dropped her bottle. HAHAHHA like how can a frog ever get into a bottle thats capped! shuhui's damn funny lah. i have followed jiazhi cel and reena in bullying shuhui. HAHAH. i feel mean and evil. TOO BAD. HAHAH

so reena jiazhi vicky shu nat cel and i went to kfc for dinner! sorry qiaowei yini and shian ): yuppp. so it was a great great time. we laughed and laughed lah! jiazhi is damn funny. HAHAH. the sesame seed thing was hilarious lah. tahah. so after dinner. we parted. shu reena vicky and i tried to get a cab but to no avail. then shu suggested walking to macs to wait for cab. so we went there and there wasnt like any cab. so i was like "who said that there will be cabs here" then shu replied "i saw one just now" i nearly fainted. ONE. hahah

HAHAH. so anyhows. vicky and reena got a cab and they drove them to macs to pick shu and i up. the taxi uncle is super funny lah! all four of us were laughing and laughing non stop lah! what "bird case" and dont know what lah! hahah hes just duper funny.

came home. was on the phone with xinyi for quite awhile. then i showered and now im on the com.

tahah all in all, today was great fun :D :D :D

and im still sick ): booooo.

taaassss.

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACQ JACQ JACQ JACQ I JACQ YOU BACK :D

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIT BUDDYYYYY :D

> CHARK! thanks for expressing your love for me on your blog. I LOVE YOU TOO :D

i feel really bad but i had my reasons for behaving the way i did. ohwell.
but actually, i dont really care anymore also.

; believe me if i could undo what i did wrong
2:39 AM '

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you

heyy. its 12.06pm now.

good afternoon world :D

TUESDAY
went to school as per normal. so actually i cant really recall much about the days and all. lessons are like so long anyway. and are mostly boring but made fun cause of pak pak and marc marc :D

all i know is, during chinese. pakkee went to switch on the damn fan. then it was blowing full blast at me. before i knew it, my nose was running. yeah like a tap. wahlaoXZXZXZX. i just fell sick like that lah. and i looked like i was crying. and i sounded as if i was crying too. -_-"

so after school. was in the canteen with jacq and peter :D chatted and bullshitted and everything. hahah petey is a sweet sweet boy eh! hahah. thanks for carrying the thick book for me the whole day! hah so we went to the concourse. managed to drag chark along with us :D so off to serene we went!

hah. we had lunch at macs. mel tan came after that. hah. so yupp. after lunch we went over to island creamery. banana split :D saw jean and sara. hah. so we sat there for like 3 hours or so. bullshitting, and all. peter and cheryl were studying. and i was just rotting and talking to mel. hah and peter and chark couldnt concentrate tho they had ipods. so we all ended up talking.

then mel went off. so chark and petey studied while i listened to some music. then mel came back. then all of us left shortly after. hahah and chark and peter said that they will never study with me again ): ): ): causeee, i asked them out to study and i didnt. HAHAH i didnt even take anything out lah. and i made them not able to study and thus they dont like me ); HAHAHHA. butttt i dont care! :D i know they still love me! (:

we were all GGXXed and they wanted to kill me. HAHAH. GGXXed. thats chark's, peter's and my favourite thing to say now. GGXXed. HAHAHAH. anywaysss, its okay to fail! cause failure is the mama of success! :D

hah. so, came home. and slept after i washed up.

WEDNESDAY
cabbed to school. and was still late. freak man. why did i even cab lah. freaking wasted my twelve bucks when im already some broke kid. freak im damn broke ): ):

so school went on and all. pw was pretty fun. we had to construct the structure thing. hahah. all the other three groups' structures were so similar! my group's one is the best! unique and creative! hahah. and ohyah. i had math and i didnt have gc. so i just ran out and borrowed a gc from a random person whom i didnt know. HAHAH. ohmygoodness. i think the whole bunch of them think that im a freak lah. hah.

hmm so i felt really sick during the day and i wanted to go home right after school. but miss aisha dint allow. she wanted me to sit out and watch them train. i was like ... well.

slept throughout bio lecture. then had a 40minutes break. was with emma and zhuan. so i told them everything that i wanted to tell them since a long long time ago. and they were such darlings i swear. thank you my dears. and im sorry too ):

so we went for the friendship day celebrations. AMANDA YONG IS THE BEST! hahah shes so cute!

tahah. marc sat beside me and asked me lotsa stuff -_-" lil buggggieee. hahah. anyhows. i think marcs really cute. heyy see, i aint dissing you (: tahah i guess you'll see this. so, HELLO MARC. hahah.

so after school. met up with the netballers. ate some fruits. then went off to the geog room for some mental prep thing. hah we are gonna have this every week! hahah then mr mark was saying something about other problems then that celeste kept looking at me! hahah you idiot!

so after that. i sat out and watched them train. i felt damn bad man. i wanted to train so bad but i really couldnt ): then when coach came, she was quite pissed off with me..

so i went off at 7.30. met joel tan at the bus stop. so we chatted a fair bit and yupp. went to meet my granny at dr ong's. he said that i dont have enough rest. hahah. maybe luh.

so came home. ate some porridge. took the med and went to bed.

THURSDAY
thats today! hah yupp. im at home nowwww. im thinking about something and yeah, i do miss those times. but well, heck. its over.

im feeling much better now. doc said no netball for a week. but heck, im going back tomorrow. theres a friendly tomorrow at kallang :D

esmonde is coming to visit me later! yays! :D

i loveee my classmates esp pak and marc and yunting and jingwen, emma and zhuan, the netballers, amanda and wanqi, chark and petey and jacq and cheryl lee, jem and leon and like duhh, christina and jaclyn :D and of course the birthday girl, tan elis! (:

> HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING HAMSTER! :D i loveeee you!

> and thanks to everyone who messaged me! :D :D you guys are soo sweet [:

> panpan! i havent talk to you in a long timeee! okay maybe its like less than a week. hahah but it feels damn long! takecare kay you panda! see you saturdayyyy! :D

; now its all said and done
1:04 PM '

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn

SUNDAY
woke up pretty late. braved the rain and went to guthrie house. did my zuowen :D then i wanted to study bio! then i realised that all my notes are empty... sooo i practically did no shit. pure choc and then bbq chicken and then salmon and mushroom pasta. yucks, the pasta is so not nice! ): and then there was like plastic inside the pasta! so i went to complain! (aileen tham taught me to do this kinda things) HAHAH. so they were like OHMYGOSH. then they were fussing over me. HAHAH damn funny. they asked me what i wanted and all. new pasta or anything blahblah. of course i didnt want a new pasta! hah i got a piece of cake and apple snapple (: i finished the salmon tho. hahah.

so left the place at hmm around 9? came home. used the com for a while. then chatted with lin and jaclyn on the phone till like 1am.

MONDAY
woke up at nine. got ready to go to the docs went to the polyclinic. there was like a great multitude... my queue number was like 2485 and it was only like 2311. so i didnt want to wait. i went to dr ong. hahah. so we had a pretty long chat. got mc for the day and excuse from swim pe :D

then went to school. reached at 12. went for geog lecture. then blahblah the day went on and all. i love those gossiping sessions with the whole bunch of fairsians! hahah! and have i mentioned that every gp lesson passes real quick? hahah and marc seah is such an idiot!

so then pe! timy jem and i just sat there and watch people swim and run. hah they said that im fat lah! WAHLAO. i think i need to lose some weight. hmph. so it was a pretty good time. then went for lit make up lesson.

then went down for training. 2.4 doesnt seem that bad anymore. hah. so training and all. coach was in a good mood! i like it when shes in a good mood! it makes training better :D so then after training. got our jerseys! pretty nice! hahah

then i was walking to the toilet with reena. then yeah she talked to me. what she said really made sense and it made me feel alot alot better. thanks for noticing and being there yeah? really really. thank you for the talk, for the hug :D

thanks to everyone who has always been there for me :D you guys are my sunshine! (:

so huishians dad fetched yini and i again! bubble tea again! (: hahah. i so wish that yini stays near me! it will be so much fun lah! hahah.

im off focused, im affected.
its true.

but its all gonna be over soon.

i have great friends :D

happiest thing of the day : i dont have to do pe anymore! so means no more swim pe for the next two weeks! and this means that I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY SKIPPED ALL THE SWIM PE! :D :D :D

six more trainings, sixteen more days :D

now, its way too clear. far too clear.
and i have been a complete fool.
but, i know just what im supposed to do now.


; what if its lost behind words we can never find
11:42 PM '

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
10:21 PM '

i suddenly remembered something!

on monday. after training. celeste and i bullied shuhui! we threw her stuff everywhere! hahah then miss aisha came. so shuhui ran to her and tried to whineee. then celeste and i followed too. then i pretended to cry and said that shuhui pushed me! then celeste kept saying that shuhui bullied her. HAHAH it was damn freaking funny lah. then shuhui went to reena and said "REENA! are you my friend or their friend!" then reena went "ohhh. theirs?" HAHAHAHAH. woah it was shit funny mannn. and the moon was so round it looked really spectacular. and i kept saying that its my hot air balloon with my pet hamster inside. HAHAH it was damn stupid! tahah

anyhows. just got back from town. had a pretty long chat over the phone with chark then i went out! with twooo idiots! sorry uh, i was late. hahah. soo, we didnt know what movie to watch! and like all the movies were selling out! hahah. i wanted to watch the namesake and the reaping! then es refused to watch the reaping! then i wanted to watch the namesake! cause the title sounds cool! but we know nothing bout that show so we didnt watch that also. hah so bought tickets for sunshine using the axs machine, cause the queue was so longgggg! hah then kengheng that panpan kept complaining about the tickets. HAHAH. then we went to glasshouse for dinner! fish&co! dinner was good (: nice food and nice ambience. tahah. back to plazasing. had andersens icecream! (:

walked around and stuff. then before the movie we went to the gents. i mean, toilet. HAHAH. okay, im just trying to be lameee. tahah so then we saw this poster, with indian actors and actresses. so i was like "i'll never watch this show man!" then we looked down. title of the show is : THE NAMESAKE. HAHAHAHAH i nearly fainted mannn. thank God we didnt buy the tickets for that show. if not im so sure that i wont be here now. i would have been deaddd. tahah.

so the show was quite urrmmm, boring, scary, exciting, interesting, nice, err. hahah.

so yupp. esmonde's dad sent us home after the show! thanks! (:

toohoo. this aint good. theres swim pe on monday. how suck. BOO. im gonna get mc on monday morning!

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMCIL! :D

; the day i thought i'd never get through, i got over you
1:30 AM '

tahah good morning! okay afternoon.

firstttt, LEON TEH ): im so so so soooooooooo sorry okay. like really ):

im supposed to meet leon for lunch today. and i woke up at like close to twelve then he couldnt make it already. boo. you suck kim ):

hmm so yeah. time to really blog! (:

MONDAY
went to school as per normal. skipped swim pe to go down for polo. i think our boys played pretty well! and there this rj guy, he looks super like qianqian! and hes so freaking cocky lah! wahlao cant stand him. felt like throwing my shoe at him.

so yupp. thank you yini for accompanying me! (: so we went back. had training. 2.4 and 100 steps. i dont know what happened to me man. i was like going to die. the whole day i felt as if there was someone squeezing my heart. then after the steps, i couldnt breathe and my heart was so damn painful lah. so i sat out for like 15minutes. then i went back to train. yeah. after training. alliance was like playing with some bug thats damn cool. HAHAH. and jiazhi was so scared lah! damn funny. and pam tried to bribe me! she wants to be my tendollars alliance! hahah then in the end she gave me cupcake! cupcake alliance! (: hahah. met dricee at the bus stop. horrible kid. hah

TUESDAY
went to school. was pretty happy the whole day. yupp. so after school, jacq pak and i were like rotting in the void deck. then we went to the bleachers and watched people have pe. so then i got scolded for skipping swim pe. well.

hmm then after that dricee came! hahah that sucker. he is so damn IRRITATING! hahah we were like fighting and arguing as usual "you can just go and kill yourself and die" "you can just go and be a goalpost. useless" and on and on it went. hahah.

so he kept irritating me! cant stand him lah. then we were supposed to take cab. so there were like five people. so he was like asking us to go off already. then i went "we are not going with you. youre not coming with us. no space" HAHAH damn freaking funny lah. you should have seen his expression man. then we just kept jagging each other luh. then he kept irritating me. then i tried not to laugh but i couldnt! hahah. i laughed like mad lah. i was like going to die from laughing already. hahah. theres always retarded fun when driee is around. hah

and he said something damn senseless. terrence went "nyaaa" then dric was like "you sound like a dead bird" -_______-" a dead bird cant even make any sound lah! DRICEE YOURE SO STUPID. HAHAHAH. then i ran after him and whacked him! cause he called me blackie! BASTARD MAN YOU DRICEE! hahahha.

so a whole bunch of fairsians walked out of the back gate. then we were damn noisy lah. hah but it was sure fun! so we met miss yeo at the bus stop! then terrence jacq and i cabbed to queensway. got choc banana cake (: then went to queensway to find xinyi and wenyao!
surprised xinyi with the cake and a birthday song! hahah (: then joshua came. then dricee and alvan came too. so then we just walked around and all.

so i was so hungry i was going to die. and i wanted to go newyorknewyork or ikea real bad. but in the end we went to imm, cafe cartel. all thanks to jacqueline lee who wanted to eat her carbonara. i HATE HATE HATE cafe cartel luhhh. its not nice! but jacq lah! wah pangsai. then i went there, i didnt finish my food. and the whole time right from when we sat down till the end, i was complaining and whining and whining. i so really dont like cafe cartel! stupid jacq! hahah. but i did have a great time! (: laughed like mad lah. hah

okay fine maybe im weird, i dont like cafe cartel. but im not the only one okayyy. hahah

so after that we walked around and stuff. saw this really pretty bracelet! i wanttt! tahah. after that we went home.

WEDNESDAY
went to school. dah dah dah. i was like really upset. then after school, freak man. i cried like some pangsai in the void deck lah. thank you jiazhi, celeste, huishian, yini, cheryl, ethel and qiaowei who were there for me. thanks for cheering me up and all yeah (:

training at 3. it was raining. so we skipped and then we trained for a while in the hall. then after that went downstairs. training was really draggy and long and it was really tiring, for me at least. so yeah. ended near 8. i was really tired. i fell asleep while taking off my shoes lah. then walked out with yini and qiaowei and i went home.

celeste: eh five dollars alliance!
me: yes? (smiles)
pam: eh! cupcake alliance!
me: yes? (smiles)
celeste: OI! who you want!
me: err. (looks at cheryl and waves) HI CHERYL! :D

HAHAHHA.

came home. was trying to do my zuowen. but i cant think and i was like shutting off. so i decided not to go to school. cause i had tonnes of work to be handed up the next day.

> shuhui! thanks for the message! (:

> jiazhi! to you too! thanks!

> yunting! thanks for the message also! (:

i have really wonderful friends :D thank God.

THURSDAY
yupp, didnt go to school. thanks to everyone who messaged me (: really appreciate it alot yeah. supposed to meet up with jiazhi. but i was supposed to go to the polo match. so i went down alone first. met amanda ong there. then we went down to the poolside to watch. chark came soon after. then lin and jac came too (:

our polo-ers won. gooood job people (:

hmm so after that. blah lah blah lah. amanda went off. and we went back to fairfield to collect our yearbooks. we ended up sitting outside the general office for close to two hours. talking about everything under the sun. hah. and my phone is deaddd. its not in working condition. and the other phone im using has like no shit lah. no numbers, nothing. im so sad ): and so i was uncontactable. and thus i couldnt meet jiazhi for dinner ): after that. lin went off first. then jac and i went to dover to buy some stuff and we went back home together.

then i came home. i had no keys and i cant call anyone also. it was so frustrating. i went up and down the block like 3times lah. ugh sucks.

FRIDAY
supposed to have training. i didnt go. sorrryyyy ): i felt really really badddddd. hmm. supposed to go shopping but dint go either.

then in the evening, i went to central to meet amanda and wanqi (: then petey came. we had long johns and hokkaido icecream! nice! (: hah then amanda and wanqi went to dbs arts centre first. petey and i went to eat somemore. then cheryl lee came!

some shit happened. and it was so confusing lah. hah. then we cabbed there. then nat came. hah. so the show went on and all. its quite okay. i like the girl anita! hahah. and my pw and lit teacher were acting! i didnt know! hah.

so after the thing. cheryl petey wanqi and i went to lido for supper. had macs. hah i wanted to eat kfc! but i ordered macs i dont know why! hah i drank so much coke today. ohnooo. hah so we had a mad mad time laughing at lido. tahah it was super funny! many many funny things happened! much jokes and retarded stuff. as usual (: hah.

cabbed home with fei er after that (;

and peter piggybacked me! because i had blisters and it was so hard to walk! hahah. thanks lah okay. i forgive you now (:

cant wait for later! :D

finally, some peektures!

TODAY WAS REALLY GREAT :D





mad mad people whom i love :D


charkity chark (: you know i love you so (:

look at this.

(:
HAHAHAH thank you youuuu peter for piggy backing me lah okay! and i look like shitttt thats why i coloured my face. HAHAH.


; its time to wave my hand and say goodbye
1:44 PM '

know what? dont freaking assume.

thanks for doing what you did.

but well, i dont really give a shit either. hah.


-

today was great :D

im lazy to blog further. so tataaa! anyhows, im a happy girl! :D

tomorrow will be a really great day (:

; i never saw it coming, i should have started running, a long long time ago
1:53 AM '

christina drew this whale for me. cause i insisted that whales have eyelashes. i thought that they look prettier that way. except that lin's drawing is totally awful. hah. and apparently, that pathetic lil stickman is me -_-" i dont get why. hah.

i know i havent posted any pictures. and that is cause my cable aint working ): and know what. my phone's screwed. im like not contactable now ): panpan, i need the cable soon ):

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

and ohyeah, i have to change the address cause blogger was giving me probs due to the hyphen in my link -_-"

hmm well. i didnt go for training today. i feel really really bad. freak. hmm. and yeah im supposed to be like out now but well. gonna meet up with four darlings plus another two wonderfuls later (: im gonna have so much fun.

this weekend is gonna be rockin' good. i need to give elis a call. i miss that girl so much and i really need to meet up with her.

> CHARK! heyy my dearest (: thanks for everything okay. thanks for always being there hunnn (: i loveee you so much (:

> JACLYN! heyy, i finally saw you after like how long! i missed you so much! we must go out soon again kay! (: love you sucker bestfriend!

> CHRISTINA! helloooo gayyyy. sorry uhh. i cant like reply. my phone's screweddd. anyhows, all the best for your matches and we must go shopping soon! i love you alottt also bestfriend!

> $5dollars alliance JIAZHI! heyy thank you so much for listening to me yeah! really really appreciate it! much loveee <3.

-

this may take long,
but at least ive started

when they asked me "why are you so nice to him?"
i dint know what to say, but "i dont know. this will be the last time"

i hope it will be.

its been a real joy knowing you. really. all the very best in everything yeah? (:

; i counted my blessings and i counted you in
1:33 PM '

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

and for the first and last time i'll say this.
i like you.

today would have been the best day of my life since the start of this year. if it hadnt been for the fact that i know of this.

its really painful. and i absolutely have no idea how im gonna get thru this shit.

save me the pain, just kill me
8:59 PM '

truth be told
its told already.

my hearts' gone.
cause you took it and tore it apart.

i was too tired to even feel anything. not even a tinge of sadness. but as i woke up, it dawned on me again. and i felt tears welled up in my eyes. but no, i dint let them fall. and they wont fall again.

its all bullshit.

i let myself fall. and now, i need to get out of it. quick.

why did i even fall.. ohwell.

whos the one who made the promise of not liking anyone for two years? whos the one who made the promise of not liking a ____ ___. its me. me. me. me. me. freak.

i dont feel messed up anymore. i feel like shit. total shit.

how suck.

but its all gonna end, today.

> NETTIES. heyy thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you to all of you. i think i cant ever thank you guys enough for being there when i was down. thanks alright. love you all.

> jiazhi! allianceeeee! thank you so so so super much okay. loveee you!


And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

; you know im such a fool for you
12:01 PM '

i feel like such a wreck. so messed up and so upset.
you make me so happy, and so sad at the same time.
how ironic.

i think i need to end this shit.
its taking a toll on me and im so freaking lost.

i just wanna get away now.

i hate this feeling.

freak, this sucks.
damn this rollercoaster ride.

You make me feel so emotional
I can't let go I'm so emotional
I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you
I'm so emotional
9:41 PM '

youre really messing me up so badly.
and im letting you do it.

just what do you want from me?
i dont get it, i really do not.
10:15 PM '

I never thought I could love again
I never thought I'd let somebody else in
I never thought I could trust and then
Here I am in love once again

went out with jacq to island creamery today. wanted to get work done. shocked? dont be. i have always been a hardworking girl havent i? (: hah. i went there. and i ended up with only a page of chinese done and 4 pages of highlighted bio notes after four and a half hours. -_-"

saw jeco and i fooled him (: happy aprils fool. hah.

esmonde came to join us at around 5. he got fooled too (:

island creamery plays really emo songs.. and i had mudpie and apple pie. pie day (: it was pretty fun i must say. and obviously, it was so not productive. im so dead ): tonnes and tonnes of work undone.

theres training tomorrow.

i want to watch the polo match.

> good luck polo-ers.

> jeremy pan pan! takecare kay! get well soon! (:

> i aint ever going to believe you again.

i aint feelin' good ): ohwelllllll.

ahh, and im so damn irritated.

; and no one's heart is strong enough to fix what happened here
9:07 PM '

its one of those days that i feel like running away to some far far faraway place, sit in some unknown cafe by the window, sip some iced chocolate and think, all by myself.

maybe i should do just that.
1:33 PM '

jacqueline lee the bimbo (:

j a c q / says:
OMGOSH
j a c q / says:
1.12
j a c q / says:
I WANNA GO SLEEP
j a c q / says:
or i'll get black rings
j a c q / says:
=/
j a c q / says:
omgosh
j a c q / says:
why didn't you tell me it's 1 earlier!?!
j a c q / says:
ARGHS
j a c q / says:
goodnight!
j a c q / says:
BYEBYE!

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MONDAY!
went to school as normal. wanted to watch the polo match, and also be able to skip swim pe. i took a pink slip and went out of school. went with lin to dover to consult two docs. both didnt give me exemption from swim pe. ohwell. i wasted 15bucks on consultation somemore. im never going back to that doctor that charged me fifteen bucks man. so whatever. it was only like 3minutes or something. rah

rushed to acsi. the match hadnt started and i thought it was already in play. freaking embarrassing. hah. nat long came. then celeste they all came also. watched the match. left at around 4.20. went back to school. ran 2.4. had our timings taken down for napfa (:

so training as usual and stuff. hmm.

TUESDAY
i was late for school. as in i woke up really late. i either am late or i dont go to school on tuesdays, normally. hahah. im weird. i dont care.

so i woke up cause i heard uncle and granny talking about me not going to school again. so i walked out and wanted to shower. then my uncle came to me. ruffled my hair and went "GOOD MORNING. YOU THINK THE SCHOOL YOUR AHGONG OPEN WAN AH" hahahah

so then i got ready and all. chatted with my gran for an hour or so. cause i didnt want to go to school so early anyway. tahah. granny was so funny lah. her friends called her suaku! HAHAH.

so then i went to school and all. was with jacq and nat. till my class came down. so the day went on and all

after school. took my napfa. yay (: no more pc! (: hahah so then after that. i went back home. not really. i went to have dinner with esmonde and kengheng at the coffeeshop. it was a pretty good time. so i had a sudden craving for icecream. and we bussed down to island creamery (: the company was great, not to mention the icecream (: hahah. so good food good friends good time good fun(:

reached home pretty late. hah.

WEDNESDAY
went to school. it went by and all. mr ong came for pccg. hes one funny guy. i want him to be my form tutor ): hahah well.

so after school. i was with peter all the while. in the cafe playing bridge and all. we were supposed to go watch polo. then when he felt like training he just said hes going training and he left me alone. i was so freaking angry lah. like what the hell. he said he wasnt going training in the first place then he asked me to go eat lunch. then promised about the polo match then in the end he like that. whatever man.

so i was like stoning around. then i called jem. and nice jem went to watch polo with me (; thank you bestfriend (: <3.

so then went back for training. shuhui reena celeste and i went crazy after training. hahah shuhui that unsung hero kept singing lah! and she only knew one line of the song! hahah it was damn funny. i love my fivedollars-alliance! HAHAH. jiazhi and celeste! (: hah. thank you huishian for fetching yini and i again. bubble tea with yini that tard again (: i love her so (: hahah

THURSDAY
i went to school. had a major laughing session with pak and jingwen. we were laughing like mad lah. and it was so super funny! hahah. and i went to watch polo after school with sijay. hahah boren was so funny. he actually thought that i couldnt recognise him. thats why he never say hi to me in school. i can recognise you lah angboren!

so our polo-ers won! great job guys! hussein was damn funny! "we are leading 15-2. i think we MIGHT win" hah. sijay offered to give me amath tuition. HAHAH. ohman. madness. tahah so after the match i went with two really wonderful people to island creamery. guess who? AMANDA YONG AND GOH WANQI (:

island creamery was great. catfight with amanda was so stupid. she was tempting me to drink coke and i didnt want to. coke's like my love lah. that panpan! so evil! so she was tempting and tempting and i was resisting and resisting and then she spilled the coke on my shirt and i dropped tehtarik icecream on my shirt. -_-" HAHAH. then i went to spill coke on her too. HAHHA it was hilarious luh. it was a great time laughing and catching up with them. i'll join you girls in fencing soon (:

off to madjack after islandcreamery. had their "money back guarantee fish and chips" it sounded so good. but its nothing compared to fish&co's fish and chips man. hahha. it was quite yucky.

hah went home at 7 plus.

FRIDAY
school as usual. i must say that i love my classmates (: theyre fun fun people! i like (: tahah and marc seah and i always say the same thing at the same time. like OMG. hahah and it turned out that MARC AND I HAVE THE SAME PERSONALITY! ENFP! hahah. OHMYYYYY. and that little ass wrote impossible on my paper! so it was like"KIMBERLEY IMPOSSIBLE" ASS! hahah

so yupp. had an one hour break. dricee was having break at that time also. we wanted to go back to fairfield during that one hour but it was raining so heavily and we dint have umbrellas.

so i was talking to dricee the whole time. we havent talked for so long in a long time! (: hah that poor guy lost his stuff. and he was complaining and everything. hah hes funny as usual. and that ass, hes so ungentlemanly! i was standing up and he was sitting down and then he didnt offer to clear a space beside him for me! so i stood for a really long time! hah okay, in the end he did, only after i said that hes so bad. HAHAH. so yeah.

i was so nice lah. i even gave him suggestions on how to keep his stuff safe. HAHAH. ahh that pandhi. hes so funny! tahah

so blah. after school and all. went to the sports com to sleep. then had training. quite okay luh. after that we went over the oldham wing and ate the food that was leftover by CF. then yeah. i got to know the volleyballers. hahah theyre all so funny!

so after that. vicky shian yini qiaowei and i were walking out. we wanted to go eat somemore. and then vicky that pandhi said "how IS we going" HAHAHHA we laughed like mad lah. then we kept saying all the sentences with the wrong grammar.

so vicky left for home. the four of us went to bukit timah. wanted to eat waffle and then the guy was like "no waffle" then i went "what the pong. how come" then he replied "the man went back china" ... i was so sad ): ): hahah so had satays and milo dinosaur.

cabbed home after that.

slept at 3 plus.

SATURDAY
woke up at one plus. but kept falling asleep all the way till like 3.20. HAHAH. so my replies sounded quite cock. oops. i realised only when i read my sent items after i woke up. HAHAH. so woke up. slowly got ready and all. brought joel out to meet kengheng. bought tix for mr bean. then we went to eat and all. jaclyn came over to find us for a short while. i like the cheesecake bar at mosburger (: hahah. the cocoa one. so we went to the arcade. splashed ten bucks there -_-" hahah. then we went for the movie. hah its pretty funny. just that there were two irritating guys beside me. they were talking so loudly luh..nonstop, throughout the whole movie..

so after the movie. got some icecream for my bro and cabbed him home. hah. so then kengheng and i cabbed down to west coast recre centre. met up with ko and played pool. a pretty fun time (:

so then bussed home at close to twelve. i had fun! (: and i had fun tricking people! HAPPY APRILS' FOOL!

> HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY AND MARTHA, MY EVIL TORTOISES! (:

and what the pong. what the ping pong pia ): i lost my GREEN fila pencil case which contains my new GREEN shaker, new GREEN eraser, new GREEN highlighter, a ruler and a purple pen that emma gave me ): i have no stationery and i borrow pens from people everyday. how sad ):

that guy/girl who took my pencil case will fail all his/her exams. rahhh ):

jacq found her phone. what bout my pencil case ):


> how purposely huh.

and so, i was right all along i guess.
how sad. a second time. .

; lets rewrite an ending that fits
2:38 AM '